Ghost of Christmas Future

 

I think, while watching the movie, this is where I really began to think about the whole past, present, and future thing.

 

Also I know I mentioned this in one of the previous posts, but when I signed on to move to Nebraska, I guess I thought I would feel the same way as I did when I left TX for NV all those years ago.

 

I couldn't wait to get out of TX back then and honestly I was definitely ready for a change when I decided to move to Nebraska, for a few reasons, but within the first 6 months a lot of what I thought it was gonna be, turned out not to be.

 

But being the person that I am, I've made it work, made the best out of those changes and for the most part, thrived.

 

But I'm not gonna lie, I'm miserable.  It was better when it was Summer (for a whole 3 months), but now Winter has settled in big time and I just hate it.

 

Living in Texas you think, oh goodness what I wouldnt give to live somewhere cold.

 

Um, no.  Or maybe...but not me.

 

Don't get me wrong, I like, even love cold, but not so cold that you have to wear 4 layers up top, 2 on bottom, to run outside, or that you have to have 4 blankets on your bed...or I guess you could just have 1 and pay an enormous gas bill, but you get my point.

 

This below zero BS is not even the least bit funny.

 

And then the snow and ice?  Ugh.

 

Additionally I guess as I said, I grossly underestimated how badly I would miss the conveniences of a city, my friends, my family.

 

So my future, first and foremost is to get back to civilization.  Now whether or not that ends up being Houston, I don't know.  Maybe Austin, Dallas?

 

But additionally my future, regardless of where I end up will be that I spend more time enjoying the life that I had there before and didn't take advantage of.

Too many times, as I am at my core, an introvert, would stay in my own little world, rarely venturing out to do this or that.  Sometimes, but not often.

Well I should say not often enough.

Given the opportunity I want to be more involved with races, volunteering, not just running.  And I want to run MORE races.  I had stopped for budgeting reasons, but its just silly.  Now that I dont have the options, I know what a privilege it was to have races around me all the time.

With real live timing.  And not the same 3 miles every single time.  Here they have a 5K ever so often, but its the same. 3. miles. every. single. time.  On a paved trail.

Blech.

Also would spend more time with my non-running friends.  Man I miss them SO SO SO SO SO SO SO SO much!

Thats the biggest thing right there.  While my social life was minimal man, I am so gonna do that differently in the future once I can get out of dodge.

Seriously I thought this was going to be the answer to so many things, but really its only answered the $ question, and really looking back...how important is that?  Eh, really its been a godsend, and I'm thankful now that I did make the best decision for me at the time.

It also answered the question, although I never knew the question existed, was what was missing from my life.  Only until I left to find that, did I realize I was leaving it all behind.

Hindsight.

Obviously spend a LOOOOOOOOOOT more time with family; now that my niece has moved closer into Htown proper, it would be easier.

Also continue with my fitness journey OUTSIDE of running.  I am really loving all the new things I am trying now that marathon training has gone bye-bye for good ;o)

So much to do, so little time...

Now onwards and upwards!!!!!!!!!!