Friday, May 23, 2014

Settling In - Finally Relaxing

After my trip home early March where I was actually here for a week, I knew the day before I headed back to Nebraska that it was time.  There would be no waiting any longer than I had to.  That day was the hardest.  Having to say goodbye to my new little great-nephew was just awful and I was ugly crying.

I was going to start the process of finding a job etc. so that I could be back home.  I figured it might take a while you know??  Besides my 2 years wouldnt be up until July...
Little did I know that within 2 weeks of THAT I would actually have a job and planning VERY quickly how to wrap up things in NE, make the cross country drive, move into a new place AND start a new job all in a matter of what would end up being 2 weeks (thanks to the movers moving my date up a week) the end it worked out WAY better.  But oy the stress of it all!
Having accepted the job (which by the way was all handled via Skype; isn't technology great!?), I had to give my resignation to CAB, give notice to utilities, FIND A PLACE to live ... thank God for my niece being in the general area of where my new job is and where I would need to live (never having lived in Katy, I knew NOTHING about the area), finish selling stuff out of my house in NE, thankfully I had begun to do that weeks before, schedule movers, pack everything up and figure out my route back to Texas.  Those 2 weeks were the most stressful, but then the actual driving back was stress, moving into a new place was stress, unpacking was stress...oh so much stress!
I cannot believe its actually been a month since I got in my car and 10 miles later I had Nebraska in my rearview. 
I am not going to go into how much NE took from me, I wrote about a lot of it back around Christmas time with my ghosts of past, present and future, so if you need to, you can go and read that.  Funny that I read those this morning and man...I actually had forgotton how dark those days were around that time just a few short months ago.
So anyway, yes back to now.  I am settling in nicely; I immediately started back to Kenyan Way, but only on Saturdays.  I've met up with a few friends a time or two to run in the old 'hood, and I have been exploring all the wonderful places here in my new neighborhood to run as well.  I thought I was going to maybe not like it out here but WOW!  Its actually fabulous!  My first love with running routes will always be inside the loop but I sure cant complain out here.  Cinco Ranch is awesome!
I've got some work to do to get my speed and endurance back up but that shouldnt be a problem given that my mojo is back.  It was incredibly brutal on me up in NE with little to NO motivation, not to mention no one to give me the push I needed.  Since being back at KW, I've been pushed and while I hate it at the time and I feel like I want to die, I'm a lot stronger than I ever give myself credit for; but thats not unusual.
I've got the NE weight to lose, plus a few extra that are just me wanting them gone.  Probably about 10 lbs I want gone and its already making an exit.  Being back here, I am active all the time whether I want to be or not :O)   No more being cooped up inside, plus the depression (another post, another day) and its already making a difference without even trying it seems like.  All I want is to go go go and do do do!  I cannot wait to be outside in the hot air and sunshine.  I tell people all the time now that I am pretty darn sure I will NEVER EVER EVER EVER EVER EVER go anywhere that its cold EVER EVER EVER again. 
I'm still doing weights, just not as much, but need to change that...and I am trying new boot camps, not to mention my bike is all brand new again since I put it in the shop as soon as I got back to have it road ready.  I'm also swimming some...I just have to get my body as happy as my heart and soul are now that I've come home!  Its also nice to have so many options for various running clubs and running stores having free group runs and boot camps periodically as well.  Meet new people!!

All in all its just been a crazy past few weeks, but I am loving every crazy stressful minute of it!

Some times I let myself think about the last 2 years..and how miserable I was and what effect it all had on me, but then sometimes its like it never happened.  In that I mean its like I cant remember any of it.  And you know why?  BECAUSE THERE WAS NOTHING MEMORABLE about it!!!  And then I wonder did I just waste 2 years of my life??  I try not to think of it that way; that every thing, every decision, every experience is MEANT for something whether we ever figure out WHAT.  LOL.
 And then I just try to not think about it at all and just be in the moment.  In this great time in my life where everything seems to be perfect.  I give everything that is wonderful in my life up to the grace of God. 


2 Corinthians 12:9-10
But he said to me, "My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness." Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ's power may rest on me. That is why, for Christ's sake, I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties. For when I am weak, then I am strong.



Sarah said...

Welcome back to TX! Glad to see your blog pop up in my reader again.

AuntRosa said...

Good to be home! Glad you found your happy again :) come run Austin in Feb.!